After reading the essential enneagram by David Daniels ,M.D., and Virginia Price, PH.D, I have learned a little bit more about myself. I remember I was a "blue" when I took the True Colors inventory, but this book dove a little deeper into personalities. According to the authors, "the enneagram is a powerful and dynamic personality system that describes nine distinct and fundamentally different patterns of thinking, feeling, and acting. Each of the nine patterns is based on an explicit perceptual filter. This filter determines what you pat attention to and how you direct your energy. Underneath each of the nine patterns is a basic proposition , or belief, about what you need in life for survival and satisfaction." I took the essential enneagram test and identified my top three personality types. As I learned more about these types I found that I had many of the principal characteristics. I later confirmed and verified my top types by answering a few questions. My three types are as follows:
1. Perfectionist
2. Mediator
3. Giver
I found it interesting that my second and third types were the wings of the perfectionist. I agree that I am responsible, conscientious, try to do things the correct or right way, and meet my high internal standards. I am one to follow the rules, whether its in a game, or a class, or any aspect of my life. I do focus my attention on what is right and wrong in my opinion, and I tend to be critical of myself and others. Two of my strengths are putting forth a lot of effort and being highly responsible. I agree that I can become stressed by not being able to quiet my internal critic and the associated anxiety and worry and feeling overburdened by a sense of personal responsibility and conscientiousness. It was stated that there were some ways I can further my personal development. I need to accept "imperfections" in myself and others. I need to practice forgiving myself and others. I also need to allow free time for pleasure and relaxation. I learned that others can support me by encouraging me to go easy on myself, remind me to take time for myself, provide me with a nonjudgmental viewpoint, and remind me that the goal in life is to be human, not without fault.
I found it interesting to practice breathing and centering yourself. I also enjoyed the serenity prayer that expressed the role of the active force, receptive force, and reconciling force.
I took note of the specific practices for the perfectionist. Participating in these practices may provide me with opportunities to become aware of how my personality functions, to take action to change my habitual behavior, to preview and review my progress in self-development, and to reflect on my overall development.
I will pay particular attention to the dominance of my inner critic by pausing throughout the day and asking how have I been judging myself and others. I will try to consciously and deliberately make time for my personal needs, desires, and pleasurable activities. The statement I wrote down is,
"Today I will practice accepting my own and others' mistakes and errors as part of the natural flow of life. I will practice appreciating different points of view, different values, and different ways of doing things. I can do this by releasing resentments when they arise and practicing forgiveness. I will try to bring a sense of harmony and balance between work and pleasure into my life today."
The fundamental principle I need to be reminded of is that we are all perfect as we are, that life is good as it is, and it is important to allow time for myself to relax and enjoy life each and everyday.

